a kiss on the back of the neck: mckenna and brian, engaged!!

these two look like a kiss on the back of the neck feels.

you know that kiss. the one you get on the back of your neck? an incredibly soft and romantic one that touches the velvet skin in-between your ear and right above your spine; the spot that sends shivers, shivers you can feel for days after. and the shivers remind you that you have to be kissed like that again. and again. and again.

the shivers really hit.




can not wait to be metaphorically kissed again, and again, and again, at the august wedding!! here’s to them and their incredible chemistry and panache! much love to you both, kj

green: a sneak peek

the place was cool, really cool.

but the couple up-staged the place, by far!

excited to share more from kristin and justin’s engagement session. just one for now.

nothing but love for these two. (the people, not the vases or the chairs. ;))


be ok

my life has been hectic lately. to say the least. it’s been up and down. on and off. in and out. here and there. hot and cold. bitter and sweet.

every dichotomy you can possibly image…

my boy turns seven in a few weeks. it is so cliche, but so true, to say, “i can’t believe it; where has the time gone?” with every turn of the day, with every pass of the year. i fall more and more in love with my children. i have idyllic reveries of their childhoods and the memories they will carry with them of said time. it’s important to me they are filled with vivid and magical moments of their youth. i need them to remember this time, for some reason, it’s very important to me that they are making memories of being a child!

even though i try very hard to create beautiful memories for them, their lives’ journeys enter and we have to make certain decisions to ensure they are still living and growing well. i do wish they had been born with user’s manuals attached to their feet. right now i would be in the section of gunnar’s manual that best explains how to cope with his obsessive compulsive habits and his anxiety disorders. my boy is in the thick of a tough time, we all are, because, no matter what, we are in this together. we are educating ourselves, talking with professionals, and working on the best approaches for him, and us, to take! i tell him every day that he will “be ok!” i am saying it audibly to him, but i know in my head i am saying, “we will ALL be ok. all of this will be ok.” i know it will. i know we will get it sorted, but somedays it’s just so hard when you see a piece of you struggling so desperately to be happy.

as parents we really only want two things: that our children know they are loved and that they are comfortable in their own skins. everything stems from those two beliefs, at least that’s what i believe. some days, especially lately, i have wanted to jump inside that little boy’s skin and fill him with extra love and confidence so it extends to the very tips of his fingers and toes. i have wanted to speak understanding and compassion so closely to his heart and head. i have wanted to remind him so profoundly that NO MATTER WHAT we are going to figure this all out and that he will, for sure, BE OK!!

we love him. we all love him so much.

it’s the hardest job, isn’t it: being a parent and not always knowing what to do, but hoping that what you choose to do is the best choice for your people. i know he is such a good boy who wants to understand what’s going on inside his body and his head!

every day i wake up and in the stillness of the house wonder, “what will happen today? how will he react to this or that today? how long will my patience last today? will he know, today, he is safe and so loved?” and then he comes into my room, pulls back the covers, and snuggles close to me. and i drink him in, and breath his innocent sweetness, and i tell him and myself, “everything today, will be ok.”

and i hug him so hard he tells me to stop. but i don’t. because i just have to feel so close to him. i have to somehow show him he is not alone and never will be.

gun, you, your life, even what you are experiencing, though it is hard to believe, is a gift. i know it feels so hard to understand, but one day you will have clarity, we all will. for now, we will take it all a day at a time, knowing we have each other, and that everything will sort itself out, and be ok. this is the fabric and texture of your life. it’s who you are, and even though it’s tough and it makes you feel sad and alone, YOU ARE NOT!!! you are so loved by so many people son especially me, dad, and lark! we are going to sort it all out and you will, i promise, be ok! i love you, to the moon and back, and if that’s how far we go to get this stuff understood then that’s how far we go, together!

i love you son, so much!

love you too, lark! you are such a sweet baby who who has been so mellow during this time; thank you for loving your brother through it all and for reminding him you love him!

i love this image, of my bed. ;) the timer went off but the focus wasn’t quit right. doesn’t matter, really. could be considered symbolic of the whole experience we are in right now, nonetheless, i love it:

thanks for reading. it feels, actually, so good to have cried a bit and to have shared!

now i think i will shower and brush my teeth, those two things will feel good too. ;) and on the way to the basin i will pass my boy playing legos. i will stop for a minute, look him in the eyes and say, “everything will be ok. i love you more than you will ever know!” then i’ll plant one wherever he’ll let me!!

feeling nostalgic

another revisit; i shot this is nyc last year.

feeling nostalgic for that place tonight.

loved everything about what we accomplished there; loved all the love we shot there:

{elevate} a fine art photography exploration: project seven

look me square in the eye and tell me a new born baby isn’t fine art. go on. tell me.

you can’t.

how can you first, look at something so perfect and deny any existence of deity, and second, say that the human body and what it does and creates isn’t fine art?

go on. tell me.

you can’t. didn’t think so.

i was so inspired by this baby, she had to be my fine art project this month. may it remind you of the fine art you created:

follow our circle of fine art by linking to the very talented maureen wilson !

have a happy monday and a great week!!! may you look at things “artfully”!! ;)

getting ready

i have been pouring over old hard drives looking back on past weddings and shoots working on putting together a slide show for next week’s lmbc workshop. all the searching and scouring has made me remember all the beautiful things i am blessed to be a part of, and i love that!

had to repost a few of my favorite getting ready shots. ever.

if you are shooting a wedding this weekend, may they inspire. if you are just getting ready for your friday, go stand in your bedroom window and pretend it’s your wedding day and you are being photographed looking as gorgeous as this!! :) heck, put your wedding dress on and parade around in it all day! your co-workers or kids will love that!!!

and this one is a new one that i loved!!

off to go stand in front of my bedroom window, and pretend…

hope the weekend is great!

salty and sweet: a sublime balance

if you heard this guy talk about his son it would make cry.

if his hair poked you in the eye that would make you cry too. ;)

and if you talked to him long enough his jokes would get you belly laughing to the point of tears as well!

veronica and marcus’s story is one of losing yourself and then finding the best parts of yourself through the unexplainable powers of love. listening to their history made me smile, and consider the journey we all take to ultimately find ourselves and then lose ourselves again, selflessly, by wholeheartedly loving another person.

i wish i had audio of marcus, talking about their son lyric, talking about how much he loves his life with veronica, with the two of them. it would hold your heart, and make you emotional. this man, like so many, is in love with his family, and wants nothing more than for them to be happy.

and he’s doing everything he can to make that happen!

the two of them together have a perfect balance. marcus is boisterous and outgoing. veronica is witty, but in a charming quiet way.

there is such a quiet calm about her. she centers people for sure. it was evident that she was exactly what marcus needed at certain points in his life. he’s pretty addicted to her, especially the feeling she gives him of always being understood. she knows his heart, and that’s a good feeling.

they are a good feeling. it’s good to be with them, fun, relaxing, chill, totally casual to be with them. they really do have such a great vibe. it’s like salty and sweet, they both go so great together! ;)

a really great vibe:

veronica and marcus, may you always stay as perfectly balanced as you are now. may you share the mirror doing your hair in the morning! ;) may you know that you are good people, who are doing right by each other and your son! i am looking forward to the incredible party that will be your wedding, next month! thank you for the opportunity to be a part of it! cheers, kj

kite flying, croquet, a picnic, and a lot of love

i have been celebrating since friday afternoon. i worked all weekend, and LOVED it!! more of these images are coming soon, but for now just a few of my favorites from sarah and thor’s picnic reception at balboa park in san diego last friday!! much love to them both and to their families; it was such a sweet day!!!

these next three, i adore:

and possibly my favorite from the day:

congratulations sarah and thor; it was such a sweet and perfect afternoon in the park! ;) love to you all, kj

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